Moving Mountains: Reflections on 2014 & 2015

Moving Mountains: Reflections on life's trials from realmarriedlife.comIt’s been a couple of tough years. 2014 and 2015 feel like a blurry fog.  Pregnancy was extremely difficult – I’d say that’s when things got tough.  And then when our daughter was born, I started experienced struggles in every area:  with her health, depression, anxiety, anger, paranoia, marriage, spiritual struggles.  Our incredible and relatively “charmed life” turned into one I didn’t feel like living most days.  It was as if there were mountains in front of me that wouldn’t move.

But over [Read more…]

Real Pregnant Life

Pregnancy lessons and confessions | realmarriedlife.comTwo years ago, I spent the afternoon on Valentine’s weekend watching sitcoms with Ben – from a hospital bed.  I was pregnant and so sick I couldn’t keep water down. That was my first of a few ER trips for hyperemesis gravidarum.  I continue to get sick until 30 weeks, and I was nauseous every single day.  I would say that marked the start of a really tough journey for me.  Yes, there was [Read more…]

Replacing Entitlement

ReplacementHonesty from a wife and mom's struggles.Playing with our 12 month old, I can count on one thing: Entitlement.  It doesn’t matter how exciting/age-appropriate/expensive the toy in her hand may be, whatever I’m holding (my spoon/paper/cup) is more attractive.  And if she’s denied, a mini-tantrum may follow – complete with squinted face and flapping arms.

When I’m in good humor, it makes me chuckle. But most times [Read more…]

Replacing Anger

Series from RMLThis last year, I’ve been angry.  Really angry.

But it’s not new – as a child, I struggled with a temper. I was described as the strong-willed one – I’m sure my parents felt their own anger trying to raise a “wild child.”  And now with so many things I can’t control, this sin of anger has returned for me to conquer once again. [Read more…]

Replacing jealousy

jealousyThe other day, we were driving home and I was sitting in the back seat as usual, distracting Elliot and pulling her hands away from scratching, just praying we could make it home before an inevitable meltdown.  And we passed a crew of moms with jogging strollers. They looked like Barbie moms – walking their sweet babes around with flawless hair in coordinated workout attire enjoying the sunshine.  And I couldn’t help but compare my life with a glimpse of theirs.  [Read more…]

Real Family Life

Wow!  It has been a long time since I’ve been on here! Life has been in such a weird season for us, and I’ve just felt like I’ve been stuck in a tunnel. At some point I’ll share more about my postpartum journey, but for now I’ll just say we haven’t had the easiest go at this baby-makes-three thing. Between health issues for me and baby (all able to be dealt with and nothing life threatening, thankfully!), being a first time mom is nothing like what I expected.  It’s hard and I haven’t enjoyed most of it to be honest.

But over the last weeks, I had made some resolutions. And I’ve gained some great perspective about what being a mom is. And what it isn’t. [Read more…]